U.P.S n Downs…

As you already know, there has been news of KSEB(Kerala State Electricity Board/Kill Se Electric Bitch) of turning to the private sector, to become a company of its own. (Phew! finally!) Yeah, I know the bills will suck, but atleast we will get less blackouts n shit…hopefully! But then my UPS has been bugging me for some time now… some 20 seconds into backup, its already in Overload.

Fly You Fools – Indian Comics about Life.

Yet another bites the Dust…

Ah. There was a time when living my life the way I want was the least of my concerns. Maybe I was happy then. Or happier. Then I lost my virginity to Life.

That time I thought it was for the best, and so never tried to react to it the way I usually do. But then one day, everything fell apart simultaneously. Thats the day I exploded, literally. But then what is gone, is gone. And now as I stand one year since that, I look back to see how retarded the whole thing was.

Most of the damage was done via posts on this page, so I can’t get to blame anyone else other than me, for all that shit. Then there were readers who flocked in for a scoop, who finally got disgusted at the whole issue.  Then college, which was shittier than ever, fucked up torture, politics, fight, In class brawls,… yeah, it was filled with retarded shit… All I want to do now is close the chapter, and to which not-blogging is not an option.  But my recent behavioral patterns taken into account, I can see some progress, from what which was one of the most mentally disturbing scenarios in my life.

Oh fuck! Who am I crapping?

The point is, I have no regrets, just because some people made that sure I don’t feel any. And I just feel I should thank em now.

And yeah, now I feel like caring for myself again, been looking after me, and spotting a less retarded face now. Maybe I feel happy now. Maybe someone else has given me the hope, yet again. And this time, it was strong enough to teleport me inter-polarily through my emotional status.Something good has been chancing with me of late, sporadically, and now my urge to live life has come back, if not temporarily.

Maybe this was the break I needed after all…

1 Hun-dread

Yes. Tagged myself from Fantasia.

1. Last beverage – Tea, Strong and High on Lather
2. Last phone call- Birly
3. Last text message – Birly…
4. Last song you listened to – A tout le monde.
5. Last time you cried – Can’ remember, but sometime recent though.

HAVE YOU EVER.. 

6.Dated someone twice? – No
7. Been cheated on? – Maybe, from my pov, Yes.
8. Cried yourself to sleep? – Yes, lots of times…
9. Lost someone special? – Yes.
10. Been depressed? – Don’t know. Went berserk one fine day over nothing though…
11. Seen ghosts – No.
12.LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS.
Green, Red, White.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU

15.Made new friends – Yes, I think so…
16. Fallen out of love – Definitely.
17. Laughed until you cried – Yes. Quite literally though.
18. Met someone who changed you – No.
19. Found out who your true friends were – Yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you – Yes, many a time…
21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list – Yes.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life ? –Maybe a hundred, I guess…
23. How many kids do you want to have –Three. To hell with family planning!
24. Do you have any pets – Panthera leo, An African Indian crossbred.
25. Do you want to change your name – No.
26. What did you do for your last birthday – Pre-exam day. Scored some frags in Counter Strike.
27. What time did you wake up today – 7. 05 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night – Snoring over my Graphics text.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for – Finish with B.Tech.
30. Last time you saw your father – Day before yesterday.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life – Well… later..
32. What are you listening to right now – My seniors joking about some girl who wants to get married somehow…
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom – yes— Nirmal Tom Thomas
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now? The fuckin mousepad of this laptop…
36. Whats your real name –Nitin SJ
37. Relationship Status – Single, and Open.
38. Zodiac sign – Taurus.
39. Male or female – Male
40. Natural Hair color? – Black
41. Hair color now – black..kind of…
42. Pet Peeve – Girls getting the idea that I’m “into” them. And many more…
43. Need Glasses- No.
44. Long or short – height- Tall enough for my survival, hair- Going Long.
45. Height – 5′7”
46. Do you have a crush on someone – No. Not now.
47. What do you like about yourself? – I am can give a hand at things… I can sketch, freehand.
48. Piercings – Not yet.
49. Tattoos – Yes, thinking of one…
50. Righty or lefty – Can do stuff with both, but a righty by practise.

FIRSTS.
51. First surgery – None so far.
52. First piercing – Not yet.
53. First tattoo – -ditto-
54. First best friend – Vipin
55. First sport you joined – Sprint.
56. First pet – A kitten, my bro christened it Kitty.
57. First vacation – Kodiakanal, with family, when I was One or something..
59. First crush- Anurag
60. First alcoholic drink – Beer, Warsteiner…

RIGHT NOW.
61. Eating – Choco-chip cookie
62. Wearing – An army three-fourth, and a sleeveless tee.
63. I’m about to –go chatting, now that I’m done with sem end exams.
64. Speaking to – that senior dude, who wants his lap back…
65. Waiting to –have some tequila, hopefully.
66. Want kids? – Not now.
67. Want to get married? – No.
68. Careers in mind? – Nothing now.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
69. Lips or eyes – eyes
70. Hugs or kisses – XOXO. Both.
71. Shorter or taller- Taller, a lil bit, or too short.
72. Older or Younger – Younger
73. Romantic or spontaneous – Spontaneous
74. Nice stomach or nice arms – Both.
75. Tattoos or piercings- Piercings.
76. Sensitive or loud- Sensitive…
77. Hook-up or relationship – Relationship that involved a satisfactory hook-up.
78. Trouble maker or hesitant-Tm!

HAVE YOU EVER.
79. Kissed a stranger – Yes…
80. Drank hard liquor – Not yet.
81. Lost glasses/contacts –I don’t wear glasses, lost some contacts when my old phone blew up though…:D
82. Sex on first date – Depends.
83. Broken someone’s heart – Hell yeah…
84. Had your own heartbroken – Yes.
85. Been arrested?- Just a lil…
86. Turned someone down – Yes.
87. Cried when someone died – No.
88. Got someone into trouble intentionally – Hahaha.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN.
89. Yourself – At times, a lil over.
90. Miracles – Yes.
91. Love at first sight – Yes. But it seems it’ll soon wear off…
92. Heaven – on Earth, No. Up there—No…
93. Santa Claus – No..
94. Kissing on the first date? – Yes.
95. Angels – No…

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY.
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? – Yes.
97. Had more than one boyfriend/ girlfriend at one time? – Yes.
98. Do you believe it’s possible to remain faithful forever? – Depends.
99. What’s the one thing you cannot live without? – My sisters, and my family.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? – Yeah, you can say that…