BLACK and WHITE : part 4

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Chapter 4 : The Firefly

Well. Given the current state of events and the kind of feedback I’m getting, some of you, yes some of you think I’ll grow out to write something better and worthwhile to read one fine day. Duh! But hate to disappoint you folks, coz that just won’t happen. Not today.

Panacea. That’s the right word. Yep, that’s what you all want, that’s what everyone, the whole goddamn world wants. One word that solves everything; But I don’t think it’s going to end anything…anything at all… because it just isn’t good enough!

Somewhere at Koyikkal long time back

It all started at school. For me Loyola, my second home, the place I miss the most now. Yes, I’m a Loyolite for life, and proud to be one. Looking at the schooling I was offered, I should have been much more now, but then I would be totally in the honest of lights when I say Loyola made me. It developed me to what I am now. But to the dismay of many others and me, the development ended there. I couldn’t carry it forward. I’m trying to, desperately though.

Life was easy then. Way easier. No worries, no guilt, just Black n White awesomeness filling a campus with dry sarcasm to eternal friendships.  Aah! From Crown caps to Football to ‘hack’ girls, it was a kickass journey; a dream lived, and so dearly missed. I wish I shouldn’t have had to grow out of it. Something, that remote something, that still keeps me going, are live memories of everything we had in these 13 years.

They feel so godly now, something unattainable; something that would never chance in this life span ever again. I was the one who usually had stories, a hell lot, most of ‘em made up, to creative perfectionism that is. Now life feels less a fairy tale and more something that is absolute. Someplace, where worthless souls in even more worthless bodies are put there because they have to live, and not because they want to.

Last one

Life has become all too serious now. Responsibilities, Material aims, Conditional Bonds, yes, I’m beginning to see reality, and I hate it. Wish I could a rebel once more, surrounded by ‘friends’, a free out of control intellectual being donning the Black n White uniform, the one that made reality shrink into nothingness before its power. Wish I was in Loyola forever…

BLACK and WHITE : part 3

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<<Part 2

Chapter 3: Music to thy ear!

Loyola has always left her sempiternal impression on her sons. We, the Loyola sons, better known as the Loyolites are blessed in one way or the other. Sometimes I wonder what I would have become if I studied in any other school, even for a year. I can’t even imagine such a situation. The bond with my school has become strong over the past 13 years, year after year, my affection and love for my school growing to a pelagic scale. I even feel weird calling it my alma mater; I’m still comfy with calling it ‘My School’ rather than some fancy Latin, Italian, or Spanish word that makes it sound like it was my coffin or something. I am out of paean expressions to describe this institution. It’s the perfect panoply I would say… the best teachers, uncles, and a principal who can tolerate us and vice versa, ;) weekly assemblies that force to take the juice out of you at least once in two years, weekly tests that make unit tests look alien, a Table tennis room, a pastiche quadrangle, two mammoth grounds where you play everything, ranging from Leg-Cricket©, to Kallan-Police, to Cricket to Soccer, to Catch, to…well, anything you can think of if it involves open spaces!

The one peculiar thing about Loyola is that each and every batch is special, each batch is known for something or the other. Let’s take my batch for example, the 2008 batch, better known as BoOZE. ;) We are like the last batch of yet another era of Loyolites. Last of its kind, I would say. We are the last batch to sit in our Old Junior School building for all the four years. When we moved to the Fifth grade, it was demolished to construct the new one. We were the last batch to not use the new Indoor Stadium, and we stuck to the classy Sutter Hall for everything. We are the last batch that has only two divisions, n two syllabi, i.e. ISC n HSE; from the very next batch, they made it three divisions, introducing CBSE too.

Well, I think if I go on like this, it’ll be a hectic job for that mouse wheel of yours. Hmm…Anyway, where was I last time? Ah! yes, So we moved to the Fifth! We were basking in the glory of achieving the Senior Loyolite status. But then in about two weeks from opening, we found out too many facts that we never wanted to hear.

  1. We are the juniormost in the mammoth building. :|
  2. You no longer need to take the trouble “mind”ing other classes, other classes do that to yours. :/
  3. You have no voice. :D
  4. You have no science, But then, You have Biology, Physics & Chemistry.
  5. You don’t have social studies. But you have Geography ,and (yuck!)History and Civics! :(

So much for passing Fourth grade! Sometimes we even thought it we were better off catching our own Maths notes(they had wings in Fourth, no?) with incomplete multiplication sums than sitting here and studying Civics. Anyways, the good thing is that our Fifth grade classroom was a new one, the one just constructed. I think now its the Internet n Browsing lab. We were the only batch who ever had Social Studies n Malayalam classes in the same room we later cracked programs involving Java n C++ OOP paradigms, and downloaded Movies, n Music n all that…:P

New teachers, a lil different teaching, same friends, well, some new chaps as well, ya, I think thats it, thats all what we saw in 5th. Nothing special happened actually. Well, except for the fact that we became the dearest of our new teachers.:D It’s another fact that we forced everyone to think otherwise later on.:P

It was from the 6th grade that everything started happening everyone’s way. ;)

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BLACK and WHITE : part 2

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Chapter 2: Keep your friends close

I still remember when we used to run down the corridors of junior school. And that too for not any particular reason as such. It was in Class 3 we really began to get a hold on our handwriting. Some did a lot of “Cursive Writing” while others just copied it. And Mental Mathematics would make us all go mental. It was in this year that saw the downfall of many peeps. The ones who used to be extra brilliant just faded away in the shadows of newer chaps.

The year opened with a new hope, but then soon saw everyone so preoccupied with something or the other that every single guy was on his own. Friendships started to break and drift in opposing directions. Yeah, peeps started to hide under their caliginous selves. Everyone became the cynosure for themselves. But then in all this shit, there were guys who grouped together. Who can forget those games we played near the football net adjacent to the junior school building. Robber and Police, Dollar, and then expeditions to the “mysterious villa” in the school compound, it was fun.

Then there was this special elite group called Ranger Crown Cap Collectors aka RCC. It took me about some 2 to 3 weeks to find out what they did, but then I soon found out where those Cola bottle caps from the Canteen were going. Yeah, there was a bag filled with such “Crown Caps” on a tree near the Tennis court. After a few bottles of Cola, and after them finding out that I too have cracked their “Precious Secret”, I was inducted into the RCC. I saw organization and building of a new mafia under the RCC. John and his goons, which included SP, MY, Shemban and other high rollers, as I remember, was the first secret club we ever had. Since I was not a founding member, and my membership was their liability, I had no jurisdiction over anything. It was like I had to spy on the whole Mafia so that I stay up to date. But then it was fun. We all found some kind of satisfaction with that. Soon the RCC’s operations started to imbricate and some of us started to feel less felicitous. In a year, almost half the class got to know about the RCC, and so the Organization fell the very next year. Such diffusion was also due to the amount of Math class work we had that year. We all had to finish various sets of sums by Lunch break, and at the end of it, The Class Leader chap had to submit each and every book to the Teacher. Those four years were the best in school. So much happened everyday that no one cared to keep an account nor did anyone remember everything by detail.

Class 3 and 4 saw my old friends distancing from me. Karadi and I started fighting mainly because of our mutual friends. There was enough tension created for such a fight, and if we hadn’t then everyone would see us as guys who are mentally disturbed. It is a very different fact that we became friends later on, but this, I still feel it was rather a lil too late. Every single guy set out on a mission. To prove your dear friend wrong, by all means. But that was all old stuff. In those two years, with that entire CC incident, and we changing places in class, I found two new friends: Nick and SP.

Nick was like this diehard perfectionist. Somehow whatever he did, he did it with perfection. Even his handwriting was like that. Since I never had a hand writing font or style on my own, for a whole month, I copied his fancy left-slanting handwriting. I had to sit with him for two terms and so we became kinda good friends. He used to call me “Neytholi” and I called him “Choole”. Then there was SP. He was this chap with biiiggg glasses and a ‘JK White Cement’ complexion. He looked like a Buji, an exact Buji from a distance. A “Dexter” from all perspective, except for the fact that he never had a secret Laboratory under his house, but this guy always used to think different from the pack. He used to read a lot and was like the central attraction in the Youth Festivals We met through CC Mafia, and soon we found ourselves talking about everything from sketching vehicles to Owls. We still are very good friends. He is one of my very best friends and he’ll remain to be so, I hope. There were other incidents too. Everyone remembers the “Junglee” Card incident, doncha? For all those who don’t remember, its better you all don’t recall.

That year, we all started to play Football. Yeah the whole class was into soccer. There was this Shemban’s team, and the other side ArjuNarr’s team. Both sides were packed with talent. There was Brittoli, and then Karooly, ArjunZee, and so many ace soccer maniacs. But soon many found the soccer politics too disgusting, that they quit. So, as the seniors of the block, with very little academics and a whole lot of fun, Class 4 ended. And then we realized…Junior School was over!

 

to be continued…
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BLACK and WHITE : part 1

PROLOGUE

Way before the boards, the theypps, DP’s immortal English classes, and the principal’s office, there was something. Something deep, touching. A story. It’s a story about a li’l lad, about his past, about everything that he holds dear. It’s about his school, the home away from home, his abode, with his buddies. It’s about those mindless chitchats in class, those funny lines, those happy moments, that striking curiosity in many faces, secrets among friends. It’s about staying back, playing hard, doing stuff, and finding happiness in all the little things around you. It’s about how the best of pals became the fiercest of rivals, backstabbing, and in course of time, regaining and rebuilding old ties. It’s about passion, adventure, panache, and everything in between. It’s about how we all, who started the journey together, have come to end it in the same place, only thirteen years after. It’s about meeting newbies, and assuring their place in the pack. It’s about identity, about the wackiest and funniest of nicknames, it’s about fun, pure fun. It’s about boys, with some girls in between. It’s about time, knowledge, it’s about experiences. It’s about life. Yes, it’s about Loyola.

Chapter 1 : The Giant Leap

When you are young and katchcha, you are not the one deciding anything for you. For that you have a lot of people around you. Lower Kindergarten was over just like that. With a lot of new friends, and many new teachers around, I was satisfied with my life.

Then, one fine day, my dad breaks it to me. I’m going to Loyola school. I was first confused, and still confused, come on, I was barely five for god sake! So I did whatever my mom n dad told me. Did the interview in style, and I was in, with fifty other privileged souls. From what my mom told me, and as I barely remember, I had said attitude stuff in my interview, completing with Rishi Kapoor for favourite actor, “Rangoli” and Advertisements for the most watched things in television. Yeah, I was into Hindi films and stuff already. My aunts were, and we used to see “Shanti” on DD, when Mandira Bedi was just a village girl, rather than the stupid fucking cricket mockery bitch you see today. I was taught Malayalam first, then English and I grasped Hindi from television. Yeah, that good old 14″ Optonica B&W TV. It was my favourite electronic thingy in the house. Maybe that’s the reason why I still survive in here. Come on, many of our guys don’t even read bus boards. I’ve heard they’ve installed new Route number system for illiterate people in buses all over the state. At least now they won’t get on the wrong bus!

And so a week before Loyola school reopens for my first year, I get sick and land in bed. I was weak, less immune at that time, topped with dust allergy. It was fun when dust was around. It was my biggest foe. It took me three weeks to get on my feet again. That time my mom finished her job in Kozhikode and my dad was in CET as a lecturer, in Mechanical discipline. Both of them took their time away from work to teach me my first UKG lessons. I started studying.

The school quadrangle

It was test, I think the first terminal Exam, with the time table going Exam-class-exam-class…, when I was ready to start my schooling. I just sat in my first class. Ann ma’am was telling basic things about wishing the teacher, writing on a four line book and many other things. Maybe she was repeating for me, as I was new. But then I still found many confused souls, and almost all were twice as big as me. But then I felt I was in the groove. There was Karadi* and AR*, my old pals. Karadi was in my class, but AR was in the other division. The two classes weren’t far away from each other either. There were four in each bench, and I think I was in the second bench on the right.

Two weeks went by like that. Just between old friends. The next week the results of the weekly test came. Somehow, I’ve topped the class. There were two others with me. One MY* and a Shemban*. With that result, I began to be noticed. New people, new friends. From that pool of tiny tots, I found out MY and Shemban. MY was a sophisticated guy. A tall chap, first looked French to me. He had this weird Australian English accent, only talked in English, and had a weird freaky hairstyle as though a pot of hair was poured over his head. But then apart from the English, he was a nice chap. He still is. Then there was Shemban. He was disturbingly white, but then he was normal. He talked in his mother tongue and easy made friends with people around him. So they were my very first friends in Loyola. MY and Shemban. Both had some strict followers, following them wherever they went. From sleeping periods to Drawing classes, we all moved on, as a team. First standard came and went. School days came. One year I was all rounder, the next year Shemban, at least that’s how I remember. Shemban had an elder bro, and he used o bring Shemban’s lunch to him at the start of the break. This happened almost every day, so I remember very well. Then at the lunch break, it was kinda a show-off of “Look, what my mom packed me for Lunch, What did your mom pack you??” It was a showdown. But that one ended with a teacher shouting at me for raising up a fish tail at Shemban. There were School day programs, and we were there to play our part. There were new friends. Kozhi* and Abhi*, one was a short smart guy, who talked about stuff that was way over us, and latter was a tall fellow with a build, who played football with expertise like Karadi. It was this year that we moved to a part of school called the ‘Junior’ School. It was a building in the shape of a Horseshoe, with some fifteen rooms in a row, and an easily camouflaged lavatory and toilets. The building was majestic. It showed off Laurie Baker’s expertise in architecture and planning. It was an apt place for learning and fun, with a spacious quadrangle and a ground of its own. We felt special that time. All the seniors chettanmaars were kept away from the Junior School Ground. But then we had our own favourite place in the main building too. And the place we often preferred was the Vice Principal’s office. No, it wasn’t punishment. Pullickal Father, as we called him, used to give us all sorts of stuff when we went to meet him. It ranged from sweets to books. It was fun.

That time, my younger bro, Niker, had just joined school. So, I kinda felt like a more experienced Loyolite, teaching him the ways of the Kindergarten. Soon Class 2 was over. The best thing about that year was that, we learned Running hand, from a very good teacher, Murray ma’am. She eventually converted English classes to something worth looking forward to, and the language worth studying. Come on, We all hated “Fun with Grammar”. It was the biggest mistake by MacMillan. It was a sick book with umpteen times recycled paper, which smelled like closet tissue, and which featured serif fonts. It was a killer book. All of the teachers knew that. That’s why they didn’t allow us taking that book home. It was their burden to bear. Maybe they didn’t want the book to be destroyed, burned and then urinated upon. We hated the book so much. So the bundle remained in the class cupboard with Library books mainly featuring Enid Blyton. We had library periods once a week. I think it was Fridays last period. Ma’am used to give us random books, and I ended up reading Disney’s books. And, so without any further stuff, I cannot recall, Class 2 came to an end. Annual exams, 6 page Newsletter, and Summer Holidays came.

to be continued…
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For whom the bell tolls…

AA...Don\'t ask either...

“The luck that is ordained for you will be coveted by others”

I seriously don’t know what is quote is doing here, or even the fact that it is here is oblivious in all respects. Come on, someone figure out a reason for all this. So, back to the point, I think I’ve done enough damage to myself and others by writing shitty stuff about what all crap that happened to me. So, I’ve decided to move to my primitive style yet again. Come on, writing about some girl is not one of my most primary of concerns. Ya, it draws many blog readers including people who don’t even know what a blog is. But then it’s ‘Pennu’ case and involvement in a ‘Pennu’ case is ‘Natta’ case. And moreover, you’ll always be on receiving end! Damn the judiciary! So, I’ll call it a day, and stop all this nonsense. After all, Why the fuck should I give a damn!!?! :D

On that note, I’ve started a new program…A flashback into my life…at school, which I miss the most. But then there are lot of things to list and so little time. So, I’ll do some serious research on my life at school, and with my friends, and will be back. Till then, Caio!

NB: People always comment about my NB, therefore for that sake, I wrote this one…I know it’s complete nonsense, But at least this time I realized it! :P